yesterday was exactly what i was anticipating. but despite being prepared for a let down i still had a hard time. the high point of my day was buying buy one get one cigarrettes. i saw one friend and he didnt even talk to me the whole night at the apartment. so i got fucked up. and spent my night plaing x box and went to sleep at 5 am. seriously, this is just getting rediculous. way to start nineteen off right haha. its easy to be self destructive when no one else cares either way.